Some of you may already know this, but I know that most do not. This past month has been a rough one for me and I have been stressed beyond belief and in all honesty, feel like I may be slipping into a bit of depression. I have moments where I feel as if I am completely emotionless and just kind of there. Ya know? Hard to explain, but life has taken a lot out of me lately.
On Saturday, March 12, 2011 at 7:00pm the Lord decided that it was time for my grandfather to come home. After the rough few weeks he had I am at least happy to announce that he went peacefully.
The funeral was held on the 15th and it was a tough day. It is so hard to try to stop yourself from crying, but I tried everything I could not to. I wanted to do my best to stay strong for my grandmother and father. He was laid to rest in a beautiful blue coffin topped with a gorgeous rose and lily spray.
I know some of you may think it is odd or even a little insensitive to have a photo of my grandfathers coffin posted, but for those of you that truly know me, you know that photography brings me to a certain comfort zone and taking this photo kind of put me at ease and peace with the situation. So if you have an issue with it, please ignore the photo or simply close this page. It’s that simple.
I am slowly getting back into the writing thing, so when I start updating again, keep a look out because the flood gates will be open and months worth of blogs will all be coming forth! Just hoping that this whole depressing feeling runs its course and I can be me once again and blog away.
R.I.P Paw Paw Jake. You were a wonderful husband, father and paw paw. You will be missed forever and immensely.